The good life

Since surgery last Thursday I have not felt like doing anything much. Boyce has been spoiling me rotten....I so appreciate him. Got my days and nights mixed up...don't go to bed until 3am or 5am...and sleep in the afternoon!!! Trying to get back on track...hard to do.
My diet went Kaplooy...but I really have not had much of an appetite..so much so that Boyce has really been worried about me..but have I lost weight...nope...nada...zippo...so the Good Lord must like me ok just as I am...so I am not fretting over it much any more...
Felt better today, even sat at the table with Boyce for breakfast...did I say how much I love him...he is the best.
Miss my church...if we have it tomorrow...I hope I feel like going....really miss my family church.
Getting ready for a Cruise in April with some of the sweetest people I know...all women...can you imagine the fun we will have....so excited.
Trying to just be a better me...not be so down when I feel like some one doesn't care much for me... ..I have some of the best friends in the world...and I am so thankful for what I have...so gonna talk to the Good Lord and ask him if he will help me not fret so much with the people that is not happy with me...and just always try to be more of what he wants...and then it all will fall in place. Just like a good friend told me....I can't worry about their life...I don't answer to them or for them...and the Lord knows my heart...
So...I am hoping to do something productive this coming week before I go back to surgery...maybe scrap book, try to sew...or make some hemp/bead jewelry...

Just Thinking

I has almost been a week since my surgery...and I have a lot of stuff on my mind. Emotional...hurting...and wondering...

1). Why do I want everyone to love me...?
2). Cannot understand why people can do something to you..say something to you...and you comment or say/do something in response...and it is "How dare you"
3). Needs to focus on my priories...
4). It is ok that when I Love...I love completely.
5). If someone treats you wrongly..and start acting like they never cared about you in the first place...step back and understand they did not care about you in the first place and it was/is a lesson well learn. Learn from it...
5)...Remember that Nobody and I mean nobody is just like me...I am one of God's chosen...he along with my choices that I have made...my reactions to happy times, sad times and burdens I have carried has made me what I am...
6). Wish I did not get my feelings hurt so easy.
7). Wish people could feel what I feel...and understand me more...
8). It is ok that everybody does not want to be my friend...it is ok....
9). I have the best family a person could ever have and God is in my life...why do I belly ache...
Enough Whining...not making me feel better....

Better or worse

Ok...as most of you know me...I am overweight...ok...obese....When I do something I do it right....and boy am I over weight...So...this year I have 3 things I am wanting to do....
1). Eat healthier .... OK...eat healthy.
A. Exercise....OK...move around more.
a. LOOSE WEIGHT
b. Feel better
2). Stay more organize...OK...get organize
A. Use Coupons.
a. SAVE MONEY
b. Not get behind in anything
3). Be a Better Person...
A. Do what is expected out of me from God
a. And if I do this last thing...it will take care of the other two.

I am on my first week of eating better...cut out almost all of my caffeine...and sweets...drinking lots of water, eating salads and lots of cereal. Trying to remember to take my water pills because all of this water...well you know...Really working hard on all three....wish me luck