Day by Day...and Learning to Cope and Trying to Understand

There are some things that I know that the Lord has let me be bless with...One being I can read people...what is in their heart...and believe it or not...I am hardly ever wrong...I can look at a picture...and tell you what kind of person that person is...I can meet a person and tell them things about their selves that they have not told anybody...and sometimes this is not a good thing...Two...if someone hurts...I hurt with them...which goes back to #1...I can tell if you are really hurting or if they are wanting sympathy. But it is hard sometimes because I can truly feel their pain...I am a very emotional, caring person and always want to help my friends and family. If you have me as a friend...you have a friend indeed. No I am not bragging on my self...this is just what the Lord has given me to deal with in my life. SO..that being said...I get hurt very easy...don't understand how people can hurt the ones they love...not be there for a friend...and so on. BUT...when you back me in a corner..I will fight for what is only fair and right....Why am I sharing this...Oh..this is my blog...I can post what I am feeling.
Coping with this Disc disease is a learning experience for me...because I am not able to do what I did last year...or even a 6 months ago. My husband and son brought my Christmas stuff in today..and I have not been able to put it up...and that is ok....I have not been able to do my Frugal Friends Shopping yet...that is ok..house doesn't get cleaned every day, furniture has dust on it, but you are welcome here any time. Day by Day...sometimes hour by hour.
I am so bless to be born in the country, state and county that I was...proud that the Lord seen fit to give me to my parents along with 6 brothers, one who I never got to meet...but one day I will...and to bring two people from different counties together to have the son that we have...and most importantly as a 10 year old little girl...that he impressed my Aunt Alice to stop and get me every time she went to church and she encouraged me to sing as loud as I could...and on a Thursday night at prayer meeting, when he came by and saved a little girl who wanted so bad not to go to hell...what more can a person ask for. My whole goal in life after that was to see my Mom and Dad and each one of my brothers to go to heaven with me..and sure enough..he saved my whole family. Put me in a place called Pleasant Union..with some of the best people on this earth.
Problems down here..sometimes it seems like they have been many....but looking back...he was always with me. My health problems could be so much worse...I sure don't need to complain about that.
I love my God, my church, my family and my friends. I thank God each day for the blessings that he seen fit to bestow on a little old country gal who has nothing material wise...no big bank account...no fancy house...no expensive car...no fancy clothes to wear...and sometimes it seems like it is paycheck to paycheck...but I wouldn't change a thing.

Sore Friday and Thanksgiving...

I always dread Thanksgiving because it was Momma's favorite holiday...loved to cook for her children. Found out George Webb was in the hospital...so the night before I called Regina and told her I was bringing dinner up the next day. Spent almost 4 hours with them...and it was wonderful...hate it that George is in the hospital...but he is getting better...and altho they have been through so much...they are just praising the Lord about their life...love them people..such inspiration..
Knew I could not hit the doors at 4am this morning...so around 8am I met up with Delores and shopping we went....shopped 5 minutes...sit 10. Really didn't go for anything...just love being with my friends and I love watching people..and we always run into people I know. Came home to a clean house...so thankful for my honey and my son. After getting a nap...when I woke up...couldn't hardly walk.....but I am better now since I moved around a bit...Now all I have left is to put my tree up....*sighs*...getting there....

Holidays

Trying to figure out...do I put up a tree or do I not....
Trying to have get to gathers with family...will it work out or not...
Do I go shopping with friends or not on the day after Thanksgiving....don't want to be a burden..
So...do I work Thanksgiving to have the day after off...or not...
Do I just slowly fade out or do I keep my presence known...does it even matter...
Try to keep helping others...or just take care of myself....(my greatest joys are helping others)
Just be me or try to change to make people happy...
Forget my pain..(as if I could))....and let others think I am just fine...
Trust in God to see me thru...Day by Day..hour by hour

Guess who is back...

Yeah it is me again...hope you are happy to see me....
Lots of stuff going on with me and my life...But first to tell you why I left. I am a very sensitive person...and it would bother me when people would not comment on my blog...facebook....and I know it is stupid and childish of me...but that is who I am.

So from now on I am going to try and "buck up"...if you read...that is fine...if you don't...that is fine....I have to put pen to paper so to speak. I am going to "blog" about my likes...dislikes... disappointments...greatest joy and just what I need to "vent"...praise God...So...buckle up and let's ride...
For one thing... when I love I love to the fullest...and I get so hurt when I see people do not like me...but thru the help of some of my greatest supporters...thanks...and you know who u r....I am trying to do better.

The things that are going on with me now...is I AM 50...I am woman here me roar....lol. Have a lot of illness's going on with me...I have a herniated disc in my neck...I have bulge disc..2 I think...but who is counting...and the thing that is kicking my butt...I have Severe De-generative Disc disease...bone on bone....and there nothing they can do. So now that I cannot physically do what I use to do....my heart is still there..but anyways...my job is in jeopardy...so I am an emotional wreck...a wreck I say..I carry the insurance for my husband and me...I make 1/2 the income...and Lord I don't know what to do. I know when God closes one door opens...but Lord I need it to open quickly. So needing the prayers of my friends and family...Dealing with lots of hurt...disappointment and heartache. My sweet husband is behind me 100%, but Lord I know this has been hard on him. He is down in his back...missed work all week..Lord I need a bigger umbrella...or a bigger bowl of Oreo's and milk...